it'd been 5 years since we wish you happy birthday..but to make it through that day was still as painful as ever..i avoided thinking about it but it kept coming..nasib baik kerja banyak..jadi terubat jugak hati..why am i still writing about it??
because..i miss him :(
i wasn't ready..then again..will i ever be ready?? no?
ayah, i know you are still there..i know you are watching over me..over us..and i know you are proud to see how we are doing now..kat sini semua orang tau adik anak ayah :)..and each time they mentioned you..i was caught between a proud feeling of being your daughter..and sad because you are gone.
losing him was the most painful thing..
and when i ALMOST lost 2 of my bestfriends (different times of course)
when they ALMOST lost zaz..and the news spreads like fire that she's gone..
and now..zira is still fighting for life..
it pains me a lot..to think that i can never see you again..
and it's a reminder..on how i should appreciate..and show you that i do..
so here i am..
trying to tell each and every important people in my life..
family members, boyfriend, angels, chenta hatis and best friends...
that even though i don't see you often..you are always remembered..and appreciated.. thanx for making each day of my life colourful..and i could never ever afford to lose you..but it's all in HIS hands :)
oh..untuk orang2 yang pernah jadi kawan baik aku..tapi aku xde effort nak berbaik2 balik sebab kita bergaduh ke apa..terima kasih jugak..tapi hanya sampai di situ..sebab aku memang takde effort pun untuk berbaik dengan kau >:)
update: zira is showing more positive responses. her kidney is functioning, swelling of her body subsides, infection in her blood reduces, intestinal biopsy shows it's clean, and she's responding to her father's voice and move her hands..please keep praying :) 2 mate(s)
